November 2017. Closing the Duluth Chapter: The House that Built Me
I wish somebody would have told me babe
The some day, these will be the good old days
All the love you won't forget
And all these reckless nights you won't regret
Someday soon, your whole life's gonna change
You'll miss the magic of these good old days
- Macklemore & Ke$ha
Adam, his brother, Alek, and I are driving down central entrance, sitting three wide in an old white Ford pickup listening to Don McLean’s “American Pie” and singing loudly. The seats are a red plush and smell like your grandparent’s old Buick. Alek has recently purchased this beauty and one of my favorite Duluth memories is riding with all of us in the front seat together.
As I write this, 1701 is being emptied out. She is exhaling us and our possessions and breathing in small breaths of fall air and dust bunnies that we will sweep up before the new buyer moves in. This house has been the most sacred and beautiful place I have ever lived.
As we finish sweeping the last room, Adam and I lock hands
and walk from room to room recalling our best memories, ending exactly where we
started: on the floor in the kitchen. When I moved in we spent hours sitting on
the floor before there was new paint or even furniture. We ate meals on the
floor, we talked about our plans for the house, and for our newly budding
relationship. After we moved chairs in, friends and family still gathered in
the kitchen, and even sat on the floor at times. We sit now together,
with our backs to the wall as tears run down our cheeks looking at all we have
accomplished in this beautiful place and trying to figure out how to let her
go.
We are saying goodbye to an old friend now. And while the memories will last forever, I won’t always be able to recall how the tile feels
cool as I step from the staircase into the foyer on a spring morning to greet
our mail carrier. I won’t remember how the fire crackles and causes the light
to dance on the living room windows and smells of sweet smoke and charred wood.
I’m afraid I will forget the creek of the French doors with a few glass panes
missing or the sounds of the ships signaling the bridge for entry. For nearly
100 years 1701 has existed on this corner on the hill and Duke has made it his
priority to spend 3 of those years perched in his yard holding court over the
intersection of 17th Ave. and E. 6th Street.
I look back and these have most definitely been the good days. Friends and family and our favorite places have surrounded us to the point where we were spoiled these last few years. And now we begin a new journey.
Step one is nearly complete. 1701 will have a new owner and a new story to write. We will say goodbye and start a new story. Adam will be unshackled from a desk and be using his hands to create beautiful homes and other masterpieces. And Duke and I will figure out how to survive in the big city.
It has never been for us, the big noisy place of so many people and roads and cars and chaos. After all, with our old souls, we have never been bright lights kind of people and thrive best in open spaces outdoors. With a promising job offer and the chance to pursue a dream, Adam is running towards a goal and I am overjoyed at his opportunity.
I will miss the good old days—these days I surely didn’t realize were the best days of our lives thus far. I will miss my city. I will miss my home. But I will lean into this unfamiliar place, into a decision we’ve made painstakingly but together. We’ve said our goodbyes and now we open ourselves to a new world of hellos.